Little One Letter #7

Hi, Baby Panini!

Today we finally got around to taking pictures of you and me at 20 weeks (and 6 days, oops) along in this pregnancy. We dodged some raindrops and staggered down to the ravine in the suffocating humidity and captured a couple good ones. Your big sister was all about the photo shoot today, as you can see from her face below. Its a little hard to believe that we're half of the way through this journey together, Little One. And who knows, we could even be further than half of the way done, depending on if you choose your birth day or if a doctor does. Sweet Pea, I'm prrrrrrraying that you choose the birth day, okay? I would be elated to experience going into labor on my own without the prodding of IVs, synthetic drugs, and the annoying beeps of monitors all over the room. Let's see what we can do about that... Of course, whatever way things start, the end result that I want is to have a squirming, healthy, you in my arms so I'll take what I can get. 

 I'll be honest, this pregnancy has been harder on my body that with your older siblings, but I still wouldn't trade it for anything. Your Papa, Zachari and I already love you so much and we can hardly wait to see your beautiful face. All the aches and pains, sinus infections and wheezing, sleepiness and whatnot don't hold a candle to you, my love. I'm thankful that I get to be your mama and I get to be the one carrying you. This is an amazing gift I don't want to take for granted. We have friends who'll never know what its like to feel life moving inside of them and there are thousands of families who will only ever increase their numbers by adoption. Its beautiful that I get to carry you from the womb and into this world. Have I mentioned that I love you? Yeah... I'm rambling now.